"Yet, in these years of peaceful obedience a violent tendency develops.
The grand plan of this order, of this structured, hopeful organization, starts to
weigh down on my tired shoulders. I become a bad habit.
I doubt my sufficiency in the context of order...
... and in that moment when I experience the most profound encounter with
the inner self, this doubt becomes my greatest strength.
Strength enough to pull a knife across father's throat."